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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Dreams

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

Monday, May 09, 2005

Monday, March 28, 2005

IF

If
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
Yet make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foe nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!
- Rudyard Kipling.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

today

My hair has been cut!!Haha..its been 3 months since i last went to the hairdresser's and my hair's been so bothersome ever since the weather turned so horribly hot and stuffy.
I actually meant to snip my long hair and cut a nice hair style that is simple and suitable for my face, but then when my hairdresser asked,"Are you sure?" I kinda melted and decided to just trim it.
Aah..now it's like in the middle of nowhere and i have to tie it or ill get caught but when i tie half of my hair falls out of the ponytail..its so irritating..
I think there's something wrong with my hair coz its been getting a shade lighter than usual lately.Maybe its coz im always out in the sun, but that doesnt mean that it should turn from dark moussey brown to dark red!!This is alarming..aah..in due time my whole head might just turn to dark orange to light orange to dark yellow and then to white!!
The hairdresser says its perhaps the shampoo i use, but hello,everyone uses Lux, but why does it only happen to me?!I dont believe it one bit, but it seems to get to Mom as she's buying new shampoo from my hairdresser 'just in case'.Ive got this feeling that the hairdresser is a wee bit tooo persuasive..hmm..
Just skipped orientation today because it was getting a little useless.Its rather sad to see almost half the cohort going off, leaving the O2 leaders to their own activities, but sadly,im one of them..Just thought that spending the rest of my time at Bibi and Baba was more worthwhile.Haha, im soo timely, the new stock just came in!
Haha, still remember the others telling me not to buy so early because Bibi and Baba had supposedly run out of sizes for skirts..
Tomorrow's gonna be class CIP:D we havent been practising hard though, so im afraid that tml might just be a failure.The guys especially are just not enthusiastic enough..sigh..but luckily kor was there to lift spirits though with his amusingly offkey voice:D
really hope that everyone will be encouraged to be like him and give their best tomorrow to give the elderly a good time..

Thursday, March 03, 2005

sweet sixteen

"Things I'll Never Say"
I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my coolI know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

[pre-Chorus](Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

[Chorus]If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to
want to see you go downOn one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

chinese new year

im in the midst of lotsa firecrackers and LOUD noise back at home!whoa..juz played with firecrackers and nearly got myself burnt:(but then..im finally home nw..after weeks and weeks of waiting and slacking away back at the hostel--
im not as free as last time, coz ive joined lotsa CCAs and CIP activities to keep me busy and my spirits up..sometimes im so tired that i juz plop onto the bed and fall fast asleep..lil goat sometimes calls but im already asleep..
The heat is on at RJ--whoa..juz got back my math pop quiz and realized that i din get 0..ok..i got 4, which is lyk juz as bad considering that the total mks are 15..walao..but not that bad la..i got 0 for kinematics in nanyang before lor..the problem is that everyone in class is much much more power than me..lots lots more..that some are surprised that i can actually be a scholar..haha..they expect me to top the class in stuff when i end up at the bottom..omg..it's not that im nt bucking up..im trying to..i did all i could..but things juz end up this way..haiz..
forgive me..it's only the beginning of the year,but ive spent so long a time at nanyang to know that once i dont do well in the beginning i'll begin to lose faith in myself and all things go awry..lyk in sec 3 when i failed the end of year biology pp2 coz i juz gave up on it mentally..haha..luckily that's over..
well, im prob repeating this for the hundredth time but YES!February is here and i feel more and more stressed as the days go by..some say the 'O's will be out by the 28th..omg..somebody pls help me!
ya i guess pp think im juz worrying for fun lyk wad others do but no..my intuition is always right..and this time i cant feel a single shred of confidence left in myself..wad with granny passing away at the start of the 'O's really put me off my energy level..ya so for the rest of the entire exam period, i was only using lyk half of my brain to study and the other was lyk stoning and totally in shock?!oh..so i went out maeb lyk 3 or 4 times during that period juz to assure myself of doing something instead of wasting my time away..but in the end i din get the assurance i wanted..it was so draggy and tiring that i was juz hoping to survive the entire ordeal..aargh..heck it..
ohoh..im stuck up here in the computer rm coz the tv program sucks and nobody allows me to watch lord of the rings--what a gd way to spend chinese new year's eve..

Saturday, February 05, 2005

nth much..juz life

Whoa..it's been lyk weeks since i logged onto the internet..haha..sorry, but the hostel's Wireless system kinda sucks. They take lyk a month to activate the entire wireless system?!!yea and i cant log on here, i cant log on at home as well coz my computer supposedly was hit by some virus and my mom forgot to pay the internet bill to jaring so it got suspended..sigh..life is soo not a bed of roses...
It's been a really good month at RJ..that's January..now we come to February..and it's still going strong:) So far i've joined 4 CCAs, three of which require really a great deal of commitment: Chinese Orchestra, Youth Club at Boon Lay as well as the Singapore Youthchallenge..
Sounds cool huh?I guess i've not really much special talents but to do community service and those kinda social services that allows me to interact with people..oh i love to do that, coz it really gives me a great deal of satisfaction and does not require interviews and tryouts and stuff..:)
Oh and im so happily busy coz im preparing for the upcoming SYF, and it's the first time i've ever looked forward to it!Yea RJCO is kinda disappointing coz it's nt as gd as NYCO, but the atmosphere there is totally different..no stress at all..:)That's what i lyk..heex..so i dun really care for gold now,coz it's really the experience that matters..believe me
My class is really nice--there are no cliques(well maybe juz 2) and the guys are fun to be with!They're all such cHuMs..lyk big brothers who love to tease their little sisters minus the meanness..well, i've only a younger brother, so i finally get the chance to be the youngest in class..yay:)
*Sighz*so much so of life..hard life..juz sat for my first math pop quiz--i tink i got close to zero--*sobz*the teachers r out to kill!!